#so much for friendship

I'm back. haha. Finally found something what I want to say.

Despite the stress from SPM like 2 days away,I really want to say about this topic, FRIENDSHIP.

I mean like who doesn't have friendship problems before? One of my old friend suddenly told me one memory when we were primary, there was this birthday party at someone's house, and then there was this storeroom, one of my "enemy" that time went in, and then she came out. LOL. I don't know why, but my friend and I went in. We were just primary mann haha. Then we were locked from the outside. Seriously? I mean why would someone want to do something like this. As I said, primary.

So now let's go to secondary. My that "enemy" become a friend of mine, I don't know whether she sorry for what she did, but seriously, she did a lot of bad stuffs to me, And she actually asked me to give her RM80 at that time. Okay, what she did was forgiven because I really don't like to keep these stuffs in my mind. And secondary, Should I say a new world? Well, it's basically just the same but just without the childish umm, what we call that? "I friend and don't friend you?" I don't really care much though. I admit I look like a weirdo to them somehow. But who cares? Because I'm special,

and they are like very common? Well, no offence that I'm saying them normal, just want to enhance the difference between me and them :) So really. No offence.

Types of friends I really don't want to bother about:

1. those attitude problems? lie, cheat, betray, hot and cold. LOL

2. like ants. you know what I mean.

3. both sided?

4. Smile while with you, but doesn't care you when you smile back. Oh come on.

5. Too hyperactive? like those they doesn't care your feeling and just say out anything?

6. Wanted too much praises. Come on, should I borrow my mouth for you your whole life?

7. Talk to me but not facing to me, instead someone else.

8. The ones that walk with you but still don't talk to you

HEY YOU GUYS.

If you really don't want to be friends, I'm not forcing you guys. Did I hold a gun on your face to ask you to be friends with me? If we both don't tried hard to be friends, what for we keep that awkward moments in our memories? To make me feel bad? Well, too bad, I don't.

I admit I sounded like I'm really bad at having friends. Yes I do. But if you want to judge me by I don't really good at making friends and leave me? Open the door by yourself. I won't be bother to care you to help you open the way out.

I'm chill dude.

But for those who actually started noticing me? Or should I say, those that hated me before and you guys want to let go that hatred? Talk to me, a hi, or a hangout,

you know, I'm a listener. You guys always talk conversation to your friends, and you guys didn't realise I'm there? I heard it because you all say it loud enough for me to hear.

And you know what? I found out there's some things that I find it common. But now you just want to like telling me you seeing it or what? That is a very weird way to tell me lol. but well, I will still treat you as a friend of mine and it's cool :)

Now, I just can't wait to learn driving and dude, I gonna plan where I want to go after that haha. And despite these "what we call friendship", I really want to say thank you because you all change my life into something better :) You know what they say,

if you stay in a comfortable situation, you will never learn nor grow up,

so yeah, you guys give me uncomfortable times, but I'm glad because I will learn something more than you guys :) So I just gonna shake it off hahahaha Taylor Swift LOL.

Well, SPM candidates out there?

Add oil! Just try your best :)

Because you're on your own :)

Have a latte or something to let you chill dude

xoxos.

#Beautytips

Heyyo peeps.
Well, actually I'm not a beauty.
But I do really care about my skin and hair and my whole body.
I know I might not have the rights to talk about these
because I'm not like popular or those very stylish pretty girls.
I just want to share what I did and whether it works :)

I want to talk about
HOW TO KEEP YOUR HAIR LONG?
You know most of my friends keep on say I have very long hair,
even strangers (I met one lol)
Actually it's quite frustrating
because I have issues on hair loss.
And lots of my friends complain their hair isn't long enough.

Long-haired girls love their hair no matter what hahahaha

Just that day I was scrolling on twitter,
These tips did a very good thing.

I really love to keep my hair long but must be healthy,
especially after bath,
your hair, when it's dry,
that scent, really impress boys you know?
hehehheheheh.
So how to keep your hair healthy?

#1 Shower you hair with cold water
At first I was like.. I really like those relaxing hot bath!
but you know, our hair is made out of protein.
And when protein "meets" heat,
it will damage happens to your hair.
So I started using cold water for about 2 weeks,
I can actually feel the changes that my hair isn't that rough anymore.
But actually it's not necessary.
It really depends on your hair texture,
so do read this website so you could think what's the temperature to wash your hair.
http://www.naturallycurly.com/curlreading/wavy-hair-type-2/how-to-wash-your-hair-hot-or-cold/

#2 Use the right product
Ask some hair experts or you can go to your fav salon,
ask some suggestions and stuffs.
If once you apply the product and you feel that it doesn't suits you,
never use it again and find until it really suits you.

Vcare shampoo! Mint flavor type haha

I'm using Vcare, a quality product of Shuang Hor Group.
Hmm, I like this very much because of the mint scent and it really smoothen my hair.
But this come with the whole pack of Shuang Hor stuffs.
It's popular on like lingzhi products, healthy herbs, protein and stuffs.

you can go check their website if you like to know more:

http://www.shuanghor.com.my/shweb_my/shmalaysia.jsp

For conditioner, I really like and totally recommend Caviar.
I bought it from Cosway.
Once I applied it on my hair,
the hair is instant smooth and also has very nice scent,
it sort of smell like Macadamia!

PS: my signature shampoo did impressed my boyfie hahaha!

#3 Trim your hair! Get rid of those split-ends!
Trimming your hair to get long hair?
Yes! With those splits, your hair follicles become weak and begin to break.
Have a hair cut for a half inch or an inch for 6 to 8 weeks.
It will make your hair grow more than it usually will.

#4 Eat more protein food
I never really tried this,
but from young my mom let me drink protein,
like protein powder put into water?
Yeah, and I didn't really realise that my hair grew long because of that.
But it might be true!
As I said, our hair is made out of protein!
But I'm really not sure.
I saw this on one of the website,
sorry I didn't noted the link.

#5 Differentiate comb and brush!

Ever wonder why they have so many types of comb and brushes in the salon?
Well, each comb have their own "speciality"
The wide-toothed comb.
This is a comb for like wet hair.
But make sure your hair isn't wet like it still drips water.
This comb helps to entangled your hair knots.

After that,
when your hair dries, you can use the brush!
Or you can use the mouse-tail comb.
(I can't really remember which animal's tail they use lol)
But please don't brush to hard because your roots might break,
and you have hair loss.
After entangled those knots,
you shouldn't have the problem to comb your hair in one straight when it dries.
If you do, entangled it by using your hand,
but don't just comb it by force.

#6 NEVER EVER AIR DRY
We have hairdryer for reasons.
HAIRDRYER. Get it?
If we leave our wet hair for air dry,
your hair will be very dry and lack of water.
And you might have a shoulder pain,
because the water will slips in your shoulder skin and into your bone.
And also a headache.
So use the hairdryer,
but we do not put the hairdryer to near to our roots,
because too much heat will also damage it.

PS Sounds a lot of trouble right? hahaha

#7 DRINK MORE WATER!
Your body needs it.
If your body lack of water,
the first thing it shows is on your hair.
Your hair will feel dry and rough,
and you really feel like cut all your hair away!

#8 Don't flip your hair
You know, when you want to dry your hair with a towel?
You will bent down and flip your hair to dry it?
NONONO.
It will only damage your hair.
Our hair has a fix shape if you don't really "un-shape" it on purpose.
And with the towel rubbing on your hair?
It also will damage your roots.
Well, the correct way,
You should have a soft towel, like those rubbery ones.
That are the towels to dry your hair.
Rub it gently, squeeze gently to let the water sucked in the towel.
Or you can use an old t-shirt.

Well, that's all the tips I know,
and you can get sparkly, smooth, long hair!
Well, I made my research from the internet,
and these are my opinion that it works for me,
and you might be different!
So find ways that suits your hair if my tips doesn't suit you.

Go shining! :)

Btw,
today's outfit haha :)
And follow me and dayre!
name: @melodyyshine
Or you could click here!
http://dayre.me/melodyyshine
Will upload food and outfit most of the time,
or sometimes that I lazy to use here,
but it will not be abandoned haha!

pastel crop top + high waisted jeans + creepers + accessories = my sunday morning (y)

I love my grand piano necklace from Taiwan, bought from my sis :)

xoxos.

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#Moving_on

It's time to climb up.

Lately, I'm really emotional.

Problems, stuffs, annoying things throwing right to me.

Family, friends, relationship anything.

It seems like nothing can be solve.

And it's freaking harsh.

But now.

It's time to move on.

Life,

is a battle you were on your own.

Don't expect the audience is someone you know.

It's never your friends, family or anyone you see.

The only audience that will be watching you is God.

And God given you a Guardian Angel all along.

So what for you want someone to stay right beside you forever?

Those are just some things to doesn't make you feel lonely.

Imaginations is what making me living in myself.

Music is my strength to approach this world.

My stuffs are my soldiers.

I'm going to do what I do.

Not for you, but for me.

Friends are just there for you,

supports are just some signs from God that says yes.

You just gonna believe.

Yeah damn, I won't leave this battle so easily.

This is my life.

My thing.

My world.

And if we have to live in a world together,

let's just make it happen.

Nothing can stop me.

Justice on my heart.

Mercy?

It doesn't matter.

It's all about moving on in a battle.

It doesn't matter how it seems.

Sometimes what you see doesn't mean it's real.

You bet it's true because answers are already in our brain.

I'm moving on.

Right now.

My best man in the world. Even approved by my parents hahahahhaa

PS. Shower is the best place to think hahahaha

xoxos.

#NOTNORMALPOST

Okay. I know people gets crazy.

And gets stupid. Greedy.

Seriously.

The social media, it shows everything.

This is a post I just want to share to myself.

You can hate it. You can ignore it.

Well, it's my blog.

I really hate people.

I mean human beings.

Sometimes.

You know, there's something call physiology.

It just, it doesn't work at all.

Let me put in this way.

You're a person, sitting in your room, alone.

You just got in your nerves and there's anger in it.

Someone that did something you don't like just find you.

The first reaction is always to get angry and be mad.

But what they say?

Keep calm. LOL.

I don't like people who really just retard to think.

Maybe yeah. I'm talking adults.

And when they're old, yeah, they can't think fast like teens do.

You see? 

There's a generation gap, and there's mature and immature people.

There's so many point of view.

And seriously these days,

I just found out that people wanting others to look in their point of view.

You know what is point of view?

I remember when my English teacher taught me,

that for example,

We, okay, maybe, woman loves branded bag.

Okay, most of them love it.

And they willing to pay that amount of money to get that bag.

On the other side,

That branded bag, ex LV, was being paid to be advertised.

Get it?

So both gets the price isn't it?

So I mean, what's this point of view all about?

I don't get it.

Can't we just like, I don't know.

For me, I'll keep what I see,

I write what I know,

If they burnt it all,

at least it did exist.

"Even if you can't see it, it doesn't mean it never exist."

It's true. Too true that people don't even care too much.

Being realistic huh? 

No way people can live that long in that lifestyle.

Babies to a child to a teenager,

It's a 10 years plus journey,

And you know what?

They survived by having imaginations dude.

And when they realise that those things doesn't exist,

They just like I don't know, we call it change?

And those changes really depends on themselves.

Some adults like it, some adults don't.

But hey, they changed by themselves,

and you still want to blame it?

Like a caterpillar to a pupa to a butterfly,

can you blame why that caterpillar change into a butterfly with purple wings?

Or orange wings?

Does it always have to be your colour you thought it will be?

"changes occurs when you're uncomfortable"

Nobody wants to be uncomfortable.

Do you?

But these always happen,

I mean come on,

It's human, it's life.

And do you avoid changes?

Like what?

Keep your child like a flower,

and you just give all the sunlight and water and fertiliser,

and you expect that flower to live long.

WAKE UP.

I tell you, after marriages,

after having a kid,

you only barely just taking care that kid for like 15 years only.

Because there is where the changes occurs,

that you been through,

but everyone is different!

And you just have to move on, do what you think is right.

That's all.

Okay. maybe I haven't been through that.

Maybe this is all just in my imaginations,

besides, these can't be described in words don't they?

Okay. What are the purpose on shouting?

To show you already mad?

To tell someone in danger?

To help ....?

To tell you're shocked?

So. what you have on your mind?

Shouting. Why?

To tell someone you're really mad,

and you can't even hear the word sorry,

and worst, that person can't do anything.

So you expect that someone can stop you from shouting?

Okay. I see.

And after shouting, you approach to that person,

and say "awww my sweetheart"

Play that two roles.

What do you feel?

What do you see?

And another role,

when you see this happen.

I mean like, you want this to be continued?

COME ON PEOPLEE.

Seriously. We are not normal.

We are crazy.

We are not awesome,

We are just special.

WE ALL ARE CRAZ-erS.

Just don't bug it.

We all once was that baby,

we all will have an end.

So?

I really don't know guys,

the world is crazy and that should be normal?

Like what?

You expect a superhero to come out and save the whole planet?

I mean like politics, religions and lalala sensitive issues.

So greed, selfish, stingy,

it exist and it won't go off?

I don't know. Who knows?

So what I see now is they are trying hard to re-correct?

And what about point of view?

What about expressing your anger, your opinion?

Humans. Human being guys.

And yeah,

this is more on the personal type.

Two things.

First, friendship.

LOL. I mean like.

If you accidentally made friends with someone you don't like,

is either you tell them or show signs like clicking the facebook unfriend button.

Please don't be like a silent and expecting people to know.

You can choose to not say anything,

you don't need reasons, you don't need to explain,

Just a no word may do somehow.

People doesn't know how to approach to a friend that hates them okay?

I mean seriously.

If you didn't contact them for a long time,

they might bugging to find you for a long time.

And since you were both just friends,

like met for a month?

I don't know.

Please just say it. Not hide it.

It's no big deal to say you hate it you know.

Even in the internet,

the haters, they comment what they like mann.

It may hurt, but to people who deserve to be liking,

they won't even care, 

and with some bad comments actually can help improving life.

So yeah. Let it out.

LOL. Let it go hahahahahhaa.

And seriously, next.

It really bugs me that people flirt on social medias through comment.

LOL.

I mean like,

there are apps, for couple lol.

And there are facebook messenger to chat privately,

and there are snapchats to flirt.

LOL.

Are they showing off how much they love each other?

I may be stalking,

but I really hate boys just put in a relationship to any pretty girls,

especially with those who have dolly eyes, makeup, duck lips, like Japanese girl,

Seriously. Boys. Do you fall for that?

Well. above all this I'm not offensive on any person.

I'm just saying.

And I guess, this is what they mean.

L-I-F-E. 

Thanks. For giving me a life to live :)

I don't really post my selfies lol
but my friend says this okay, so yeah lol.

xoxos.

#a_little_emotional

DISCLAIMER: This post might be a little negative, but it's something I've been through and it makes me sort of emotional, so if you don't read stuffs like this, then PLEASE DON'T READ IT. Thanks :)

Hey readers.

Finally my school exam is over!

But I actually can't feel that,

because the last paper was goddamn hard.

But it's over, so yeah.

On the last post,

I told that you guys my line name,

and I realize some people actually added me.

But I don't know why,

I can't find your name,

because your name only appear on the notifications.

LOL.

Just wanna tell you guys that feel free to chat with me!

I'm just an ordinary girl lol

I can be friends and I'm a fast typer hahaha

So feel free to chat :)

A simple hi will do :)

And some intro about you :)

Those who haven't added me yet,

my line name is @melodyyshine :)

And then after the exam,

I went to Aeon, at Bukit Tinggi,

near my school lol.

I went with my friends first,

to watch the movie, The Maze Runner.

It was quite nice though,

I know the book would be so much nicer,

but I'm actually out of budget haha $$

Then I join with another special friend of mine,

and we had small talk for like 2 hours haha.

Does that count small?

Okay, now here comes the emotional part.

*If you still reading, please don't judge okays? :)

*If you want to judge, fine, just go ahead -_-

I was emotional on my life, my future though.

I think most of the people around my age do face this problem.

You know when you exactly know what to do,

but you think you don't have the ability to achieve it?

SPM is just around the corner,

and somehow I'm scared though.

It's not that I really care SPM but it's still an exam to me.

I'm some kind of person who always want to do my best,

but seriously, it's been a long time I try to do my best.

I didn't even feel real stress on my studies!

I'm not trying hard enough,

but there's this feeling that I can't take it,

keep saying that I'm actually having stress right now.

Oh I do have.

And it's about thinking that stuffs I shouldn't think.

It's so hard to express the strange depression.

Yesterday night I was suffering this.

And yet today I did too.

It's like my brain was nothing,

but when I close and open my eyes,

my tears just fell and I did not know what happen.

It's very strange to cry on something you don't even know lol

Hmm. I guess I still can work it out though.

My friend just finished UEC and decided to teach me tips.

I guess I could work hard from now. :(

Though studies are just part of it,

you know that my path to music,

is seriously CRAZY enough for me to be a CRAZ-ER.

I'm not really good at playing classical songs,

like those old old song with lots of skills,

and I realise I don't really know how to do arrangement.

I'm actually obsessed with light jazz,

but I don't think self-learning will get me anywhere.

I don't really have that talent,

I just like music, like a hobby,

but I don't think it's easy to make a career out of it.

*A bit blur because the lighting wasn't good.*
My special friend taught me some add maths hahahaha

Now that my final exams are finished,

it's time to learn driving.

And it's like a turning point to an adolescence,

I'm scared, I'm afraid, I'm not brave enough,

but with all my friends and family support,

I know I will try my best,

I do hope I can take out the me inside of me,

It's like I've been living inside there for a long time.

"I rather fall down than going the short cut of dying."

Somehow I know my life right now,

it's just the beginning of the challenge,

and who knows what I can do with myself?

My parents bought me this batch.

It's quite motivating :)

And I will do it until I success :)

For people out there who in need,

I support you guys to continue to keep doing whatever you're doing,

and if it feels right,

keep in mind that you will success.

Weird ootd pose haha

And have you all heard Oasis Square?

It's a very nice place!

With food and nice background.

Go ask your parents to bring you there to have a look!

And to our Malaysians,

Happy Deepavali ! :)

keep smiling and you'll be there.

xoxos.

#halfwaythere

WOAH. That was busy.

haha. Exam is half-ly over,

I still have two papers left.

(Ignore SPM hahahahaha)

No, I don't ignore,

I just ummm, relax for a short while?

Yesterday I was on the piano for the whole day.

YESH. I didn't even eat lunch or dinner hahaha.

(Of course there is tea time hahahaha)

And I play almost every song I know.

And then,

back before the days,

I saw a video on facebook,

playing every song in a game, Tower of Saviors,

HAHAHA. It was good!

And it did inspired me!

Since I was obsessed with this game now,

which my class and in my bus,

they were playing almost every time!

So I decided to play the theme song!

HAHAHA.

It was not that awesome as you think.

So here it is :)

I know it isn't as good as it is.

It was my first try though.

HAAHAH.

So I was asking,

anyone want me to play game songs and put it in a video?

I can try to listen and play though!

So if you feel bored now,

Go and download the game and add me!

It's a line game :)

It requires line account.

But it's free, and available in apple store and google play!

Add me in line to play with me if you want!

@meloddyshine

Have fun playing!

#tb when I bought the helium balloons I love so much for my bestie!

xoxos.

#maybefashion?

Hey peeps.

Umm. I was actually busy studying.

Yes. Yes I did.

And then just that day,

I went to the dentist to do some teeth cleaning :)

Now I dare to smile again!

Then my mom say that there was a postman came,

and sent a package to our house.

Haha. I know what that is :)

I love online shopping and most of my clothes are bought from there.

and it's my beautiful dress!

There are "holes" in front and at the back!

Well, I still look fat :(

But I did start some workout routines on youtube like

XHIT daily or blogilates which I prefer more.

It's very sweaty and you will feel your fats burning :D

I love it how that feels because I can't wait to see what happen at the end!

So workout is a must!

Oh geez.

My final exam is 2 more days away,

and SPM is 22 days away!

AHHH. I should really leave now. 

xoxos.

#Life_is_life

I'm back! HAHA.

I told you I will update frequently.

I try my best though :)

But my school exams just started and SPM is like few week away!

NERVOUS, but actually I could manage to do it.

I'm not people who are very very clever and always get good marks,

but then I know my SPM can get at least 5A's!

I really hope so, though it doesn't help me much in my life.

I started getting on my nerve to really study.

Maybe not, because I'm like on the computer for 1hour plus already 

*gasps*

But I did my best to get all the time I have.

Today was quite normal but still funny.

I always hangout with my best friend for lunch,

because my him just went for school like 3hours!

So not fair. Wish I can be senior 3 right now 

*sobs* *sobs*

BUT! I did enjoy a relaxing day with her.

Before this two weeks, we have tons of quizzes,

DAY BY DAY!

How tiring that was.

And now is, exam.

But I should be ready.

LIFE TIPS:

We don't wait to be ready to do something,

because we will never ready to do anything we expect we can do.

We can't do it the best by forcing it out.

God will lead us and let us learn.

He has a plan and you should trust.

And talking about trust,

today's paper was chinese writing essay,

And I wrote the topic about trust hahaha.

It reminds me of the game,

where you need to fall down backwards,

and trust your friend that they will be there holding you?

I wonder how many people dare to play this game with their best friend.

As I know the world now is a little crazy lol

including me somehow .__.

Well, not much today, 

but I'm glad I have the time to update my blog!

I really hope I can make it till the end!

I love my blog because no one else will love more than I do :)

PS. I WILL START DOING MY "ALL OF ME COVER" WITHIN THIS MONTH. STAY TUNED ON MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL!*blinks*

xoxos.

#life

So. Recently I just flip through many famous bloggers.
And somehow, I WAS thinking that I want to have a professional blog,
but I thought of those like, need to update posts,
I can't really do it recently because of big exams for like two months.
I really admire those people who are so pretty and people will want to be with them.
And though, I just have few good friends, I still feel that is enough.

I want to start blogging.
Not because of fame,
but because I need some place for me to express my feelings and my life.
I know I may not be those famous blogger,
like fashion, lifestyle and everything a girl wants.
I just an ordinary girl that lucky enough to live on this Earth :)

Well, my English might not be as good as others,
but though I'm still learning :)

As you can see, I really love music a lot,
and it's like freaking me out if music will gone one day.
I really appreciate that my parents got me a white grand piano,
which I call it "White Horse",
for about two years already.
I once promised myself to make lots of covers with it,
but something stopped me.

I really want to share music with everyone out there,
I have so much to tell in music,
I always say to myself to do it.
Well, now I found out that my problem was actually "desperate to be fame".

But now, since I realised that I have this serious problem,
I will just change it and don't think too much.
Thinking sometimes can be like a serious problem and we don't know about it!
It's like the fox will slowly come into our life and like,
what does the fox say?

I'm grateful I have a wonderful family,
my parents are still strong,
my sister is going to have a wonderful future,
and so loving to me :)
And my closest friends,
And my little puppy (It's an old poodle but it's still a baby to me :D )
And God who loves me a lot,
And my guy :D

Life gets hard when you want it more,
I get it now, but I'm not sorry my past,
because growing is a part of me,
and I will grow up!

I love fashion, I love photography, I love food and almost everything!
But if they love me back, they will be there for me :D
haha.

I'm too emotional sometimes, but thanks to anyone who cheered me up :D
Every blessing you all given to me is forever remembered!
Thank you for reading my blog even though is so boring,
but the next time I update,
it will be me, updating my own blog :)

My whole-life best friend *v*

xoxos,