#a_little_emotional

DISCLAIMER: This post might be a little negative, but it's something I've been through and it makes me sort of emotional, so if you don't read stuffs like this, then PLEASE DON'T READ IT. Thanks :)

Hey readers.

Finally my school exam is over!

But I actually can't feel that,

because the last paper was goddamn hard.

But it's over, so yeah.

On the last post,

I told that you guys my line name,

and I realize some people actually added me.

But I don't know why,

I can't find your name,

because your name only appear on the notifications.

LOL.

Just wanna tell you guys that feel free to chat with me!

I'm just an ordinary girl lol

I can be friends and I'm a fast typer hahaha

So feel free to chat :)

A simple hi will do :)

And some intro about you :)

Those who haven't added me yet,

my line name is @melodyyshine :)

And then after the exam,

I went to Aeon, at Bukit Tinggi,

near my school lol.

I went with my friends first,

to watch the movie, The Maze Runner.

It was quite nice though,

I know the book would be so much nicer,

but I'm actually out of budget haha $$

Then I join with another special friend of mine,

and we had small talk for like 2 hours haha.

Does that count small?

Okay, now here comes the emotional part.

*If you still reading, please don't judge okays? :)

*If you want to judge, fine, just go ahead -_-

I was emotional on my life, my future though.

I think most of the people around my age do face this problem.

You know when you exactly know what to do,

but you think you don't have the ability to achieve it?

SPM is just around the corner,

and somehow I'm scared though.

It's not that I really care SPM but it's still an exam to me.

I'm some kind of person who always want to do my best,

but seriously, it's been a long time I try to do my best.

I didn't even feel real stress on my studies!

I'm not trying hard enough,

but there's this feeling that I can't take it,

keep saying that I'm actually having stress right now.

Oh I do have.

And it's about thinking that stuffs I shouldn't think.

It's so hard to express the strange depression.

Yesterday night I was suffering this.

And yet today I did too.

It's like my brain was nothing,

but when I close and open my eyes,

my tears just fell and I did not know what happen.

It's very strange to cry on something you don't even know lol

Hmm. I guess I still can work it out though.

My friend just finished UEC and decided to teach me tips.

I guess I could work hard from now. :(

Though studies are just part of it,

you know that my path to music,

is seriously CRAZY enough for me to be a CRAZ-ER.

I'm not really good at playing classical songs,

like those old old song with lots of skills,

and I realise I don't really know how to do arrangement.

I'm actually obsessed with light jazz,

but I don't think self-learning will get me anywhere.

I don't really have that talent,

I just like music, like a hobby,

but I don't think it's easy to make a career out of it.

*A bit blur because the lighting wasn't good.*
My special friend taught me some add maths hahahaha

Now that my final exams are finished,

it's time to learn driving.

And it's like a turning point to an adolescence,

I'm scared, I'm afraid, I'm not brave enough,

but with all my friends and family support,

I know I will try my best,

I do hope I can take out the me inside of me,

It's like I've been living inside there for a long time.

"I rather fall down than going the short cut of dying."

Somehow I know my life right now,

it's just the beginning of the challenge,

and who knows what I can do with myself?

My parents bought me this batch.

It's quite motivating :)

And I will do it until I success :)

For people out there who in need,

I support you guys to continue to keep doing whatever you're doing,

and if it feels right,

keep in mind that you will success.

Weird ootd pose haha

And have you all heard Oasis Square?

It's a very nice place!

With food and nice background.

Go ask your parents to bring you there to have a look!

And to our Malaysians,

Happy Deepavali ! :)

keep smiling and you'll be there.

xoxos.